dammit, i suck. my stomach is churning in anxiousness, i can't bear the fear of losing u. is not as bad as u are not physically with me, but u left me without hearing my explanation. A misunderstanding that's all i am carrying, i couldn't bear that for any longer, u know i can't, i will lose. and if u are ok, i juz want to talk to u. end this charade.