i felt his hints and messages all around what I've been doing. is a slow painful road that i deserves, being so stubborn all these years. but i think this time, decisions has made. God had allowed me to choose in the beginning, but he have reduced it into only one. in the midst of numerous things i do, things i love doing, suddenly, i felt empty and lonely- i did not enjoyed the day. i guess this is how the devil "leaving me dead". i guess i have no more choice left.
the damage already done, i felt worthless. things shows its causes and effect, this night really told me a lot of truth. it could be a wonderful day only when it starts with it
i start to know the line, i start to appreciate, i start to learn to shut up and talk. if i could just take things seriously, if i could be more serious about it, if i could follow everything He said, i wouldn't have to worry about what's right and wrong.