Restorations... make shift the bad from the good, trying to settle some impurity inside, refining my potential, pushing my limits, putting everything in place...
not quite an easy thing to do, in fact, IT'S HARD!!!
Against all odds, telling myself soon it will be where i wanna be, i have come to a place i've never been... ready to be slaughtered by more problems, my mind slowly triggered my emotion, my vision started to shiver, however i blink i could nv see clearly, something wet lavished out from my eyes... heartfelt sorrows turned into tears... meet crybaby glenn...
i drowned myself so deep in my tears... minutes turns to hours, i just can't wrap it up... eventually i found myself laughing at myself...
this is not the first time... i remember when i saw the news of someone in my group decided to backslide, i could only helplessly cried, when ever someone mention him, my tears will fall... now i could hardly remember his name... ha...
i felt so jaded after tat, but it was good threshing out stuff... beating myself up... bittersweet feelings...